Weird. Friday night, I believe I somehow magically got a little bit of Christmas spirit.
I was waiting for a friend to stop by, so I was sitting by the Christmas tree, and noticed Dad hadn’t put up all the decorations…. Especially my favorite ones… Like my little sister’s old PowerPuff Girls… I stuck those on the tree.. I also found some of my decorations that my high school German teacher gave us every year. The German in me HAD to put those up. Then it hit me. These little paper decorations that I made when I was like 10, and falling apart, were on the tree. I’m sitting here, wondering why Dad has put this piece of garbage on the tree. I couldn’t help but remember making those stupid things and how much fun it was to look forward to Christmas.
The last 5 Christmases, except for last Christmas, sucked.
I hate this right now. Everyone’s getting all excited for Christmas, and I’m sitting here being the grinch. Friends and co-workers have asked what’s up this year.. Last year, I was all excited about Christmas. This year, I hate the fact that we have a Christmas tree put up. Lights are pretty, but it’s not getting me in the mood. Why? Because I have seen Christmas decorations since JULY!!! Overkill, seriously. Christmas has completely lost its meaning to me. I can handle Christmas stuff beginning of November, but before Halloween is Christmas suicide for me.
I don’t even feel like going Christmas shopping for anyone. I think all anyone would get from me is a card that said “Merry Christmas” except it wont even be “merry.”
I know what would make it a “Merry” Christmas for me. Give me some Amareto and I’ll be “nice.”
Or maybe seeing the Profit Sharing check deposited into my checking account might cheer me up a bit. But I doubt it because I’ve already decided that that money is going to be used to pay my Spring Semester tuition. At least I’ll be back in school in the Spring. I’m actually excited about getting to start drawing again. Drawing 2 starts Jan 9th, or something like that. Then the one other class I’m taking is online. Ya, part time student next semester, but I figure after dropping out this semester from getting sick, I need to “ease” back in instead of dropping all my classes again and throwing $1000 down the drain.